Well, enough of this introspection. It’s depressing, quite frankly.
Life is too short to waste being a productive member of society.
Worry wasn’t an emotion to which he was particularly accustomed - and it worried him.
He knew perfectly well (even if he wasn’t inclined to admit it) that the material body had a spiritual aspect. He knew that “spirit,” however explained, was real, because of his own undeniable experiences - which, though he might suppress them, he couldn’t altogether erase from memory.