You can’t put much on paper before you betray your secret self, try as you will to keep things civil.
I don't write about what I know: I write in order to find out what I know.
Maybe being oneself is an acquired taste. For a writer it's a big deal to bow-or kneel or get knocked down-to the fact that you are going to write your own books and not somebody else's. Not even those books of the somebody else you thought it was your express business to spruce yourself up to be.